Before you accuse me of foolishness, insensitivity, being too gullible, and sheer madness, please take this as my quest for knowledge. Some Nobel prize winners say that HIV= AIDS hypothesis is a hoax!
I do not mean no harm if you have lost a loved one from HIV AIDS. If it will save as any consolation, a way for you to understand that I am not just writing from my brain (you may think from my rear), or may be some evidence that I do not take this lightly, I want you to know that I too have been through that road. A few weeks ago I lost my uncle, who by the way I said to have died of AIDS. But of course I do not know what really killed him. What I know is that I have lost three uncles thus far, all of whom have died in exactly the same manner. They have been said to have died of AIDS.
And the moment they came to our house, it was as if my family knew that this was their last good bye. They came with different illnesses, and in the hope of gaining better health care, which they did, they started suffering from the same exact problems. They are family and so we did all we could. And since my country is undergoing unprecedented levels of economic problems, I naturally had to foot all the very expensive funeral bills, which ran into, well, it's not about the money. It is about family!
As I write, my tears have not dried. Instead, they have continued to flow into a river that has swept my heart into a quest for an answer to the question- why did they die? One of my uncles was the very religious type and I can certainly attest to him not having had multiple partners and so the whole issue of HIV AIDS as being the cause of his death is really taking a toll on me. May be it is my limited knowledge of the subject- which is why I am searching.
There are a lot of things that just do not add up, among which are the fact that three people - who have since died- complained of exact similar symptoms after taking medication for different conditions. Then there is the gradual decline that they went through so that my mother once described my uncle as being in his final stages because the previous uncle was behaving like that in his final days. Perhaps I should start believing in magic. But, for now, all of this has just left me questioning so many things to which answers are hard to come by. It is in this spirit that I am reading and reflecting on these articles below. May be books and articles are not the place to look. I really do not even know what the truth will do at this point, but there is in me a deep feeling of wanting to be enlightened. May be it is my sheer search for a bigger meaning in life and an inability to simply accept that life does come to an end. After watching a youtube video, it makes me wonder about AIDS. I am wondering more so because I once wrote a paper for a non profit management class on how HIV AIDS is undermining accountability in the non profit sector in Southern Africa. You can read it if you request it.
So, I stumbled upon these articles and sites. Though I am happy to read them, I remain unsure of the validity and authenticity of anything I read online.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO9pFFanbCQ&NR=1
http://www.hanalulus.com/hank/dues.sci.am.cancer.pdf
http://aras.ab.ca/articles/legal/parenzee-bauer.html
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
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